faith

The apostles said to the Lord, "Increase our faith!"

He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you. -Luke 17:5-6

i don't need more faith. i just need some.

i'm tired.
tired of waiting.
tired of making plans.
tired of hoping.
tired of hearing advice and God-talk.
tired of trying to laugh it off.
tired of excusing people who don't get it.
tired of feeling guilty.
tired of having to be strong.
tired of crying.

just tired.

i'm trying to hang on.
i can be short-sighted, i know.
but it's really hard.
being supportive is hard. waiting is hard.
waiting for so long is really hard.

sometimes i just get tired.
really tired.


"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for
and certain of what we do not see." -Heb. 11:1